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headdesk

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 03:18:08 GMT

FINALLY. I am finished (mostly) registering for college.
It was an adventure and a half, and it cost me a lot.
But I'm getting excited, actually. ^ ^

I'm now addicted to stepmania, officially.

Which = good, because I can loose some weight. I weigh a certain ammount... but I'll just say it's about 20 more pounds than what I should be.

According to those average weight things, anywho.

I had a job interveiw at Michael's on Saturday. Yes folks, I really want that 25% discount... ^ ^'
So tomorrow-ish they said I might be called back.
She liked the new hoodie I knit, anyway.

*listening to the background TV* Apparently, Lucy Lawless can sing. O O

I'm getting a drastic haricut tomorrow, so I'll try to dig up the webcam and take a few pictures.

EGADS. Some Stuff.

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 19:51:52 GMT

Olla~

So, I haven't got a job (yet). I'm going to the job fair at Michaels at the end of the month.
I've got orientation at the college at the end of the month. O O Which makes me a little nervous, but it'll be good, I think.
I got back from vacation sometime last week, went camping in the mountains, an then to BC. The camping was super fun. The landscape around here is pretty boring, so I had fun staring at all the mountains, rivers, and waterfalls. ^ ^
I should scan some vacation pictures, and I still have to scan my Animethon pictures. I didn't end up cosplaying, but I did take some really good pictures. A girl I used to know had a lolita dress from the Innocent World brand, it was soooo pretty, and I took a picture.
I dyed my hair black. And I don't think I shall dye it any other color. Because I really like it. My mom doesn't, of course, and I don't think much of my family does. But it's a neutral black, instead of a blue or red black, and it looks really neat. So now I have to come up with a really nifty hairstyle to give my hair stylist, because if I give him pictures, he can do it. But I got so sick of the red, and it wouldn't go to brown, so I just did black. It scared me at first, but I do really love it now.
I'm trying to open an online knitting store, scarves being the specialty. It'll be called Strawberry Cake! I'm really excited about it, actually.
Some STUFF. Which is actually dreadful... I won't say till I know for sure. It's not particularily dreadful in the scheme of things, but I can't have very much sugar at all anymore. And I really love cookies...
BAH.
Anywho.
I've fallen in love with this song, Somewhere Only We Know, by Keane. I can't stop listening to it.
I've become very re-obsessed with Kingdom Hearts. So I'm going to start playing KH2 over again. ^ ^

I suppose that's all, for now....
OH. And now we have super high speed internet. Which is much happy.
yuup. noodles~

DUCK AND COVER!! O O

Tue, 11 Jul 2006 18:52:33 GMT

The apocolypse is seriously upon us.

For I, possibly the most laziest of all, am currently doing something I thought I would never do.

I'm writing up my resume.

Yup. Manual labor. Seriously something I would never ever consider, but in truth, I just really need the money.

So... wish me luck... ^ ^'

(I'm applying firstly at Michaels, because if there is an employee discount, it would make my knitting habit very happy.)

ANIMETHON!

Mon, 10 Jul 2006 20:00:26 GMT

I spent all weekend at the Animethon, Edmonton's anime convention. I got home about 6 on Sunday, and I was SO tired, but it was SO much fun.

We got there early enough on the first day, and waited in line for the market place. Which turned out to be a very long wait, because there was pirated merchanside found, and they had to get it out before anyone was allowed in, otherwise they would be shut down, and apparently the police were even involved, but it was very much worth it. I spent around 200 dollars in two hours, which I can honestly say is the most money I have spent ever in one day in my life.

I bought:

a kingdom hearts necklace (a keyblade)
a Loveless necklace (it's a really cute butterly, with little dangly pearls and crystals)
LOTS of manga. Gorgeous Carat 1, Earthian 3, Loveless 2, Deathnote 3 5 and 6, Fullmoon O Sagashite 1 (for my sister), Lost Boys, Le Portrait de Petit Cossette
Three posters, one of Gackt, one of Deathnote, and one of the Black Stones from Nana
A Kingdom Hearts wallscroll
AND THE KAMIKAZE GIRLS NOVEL! It was the only one I could find, and I bought it immediately. So far, it's REALLY good.

And I of course have learned an important lesson. Which is NEVER buy that much in one day (unless it's yarn, because yarn can squish into small place and isn't at all very heavy), so early in the day, because then you have to carry the friggin bags around all day, and end up very sore in the arms the next day.

But it was all such super fun, and I'll post more about it later in the week, when I get my pictures developed. My mom was supposed to take them in today, but I guess she forgot... even though I told her lots of times...

I've totally fallen in love with the decora and oshare kei styles, so I tried to dress that way a little both days. And people must have liked my outfits, because I had my picture taken a total of 5 times! ^ ___ ^ (so that made me very happy, and I was very flattered!)

So, I will post lots of pictures possibly on wednesday~ ^ ^

^ _______ ^

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 17:46:31 GMT

HARK.

What do I hear?

Why, I do believe I hear the first thunder of a potential storm.

Which would be SO wonderful. I know I've said that a million times... ^ ^'
But hot weather sucks for people like me who wear knitting and multiple layers of clothing.

LINKS TO MY KNITTING!

http://www.craftster.org/forum/index.php?topic=105471.0 <---some realllly cute armwarmers!
http://www.craftster.org/forum/index.php?topic=105463.0 <---the shoes I painted

(Jeebus, the thunder is loud... O O)

happy_cupcake and gin_no_tsuki: LOL I owe you both penpal letters, and they are being mailed tomorrow evening. ^ ^ (sorry they are so late!)

Warrior of Imagination

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 22:55:49 GMT

*points* there's an in class doodle I made, and never got around to scanning... I've drawn lots more of Nedd and Merl too. I made them another little friend, but it doesn't have a name yet. It looks a little like a squashed rabbit...

The weather totally needs to go. I got 4 hours of sleep last night. And I can't have tea or anything caffienated, because I think it's making my stomach ill. It's the only thing I drink/eat enough of that it could actually make me sick.

I give it until Wendesday until the real tea withdrawl sets in, and I start sleeping with my teapots by my pillow instead of my stuffed jellyfish and rabbits...

And now...

A PICTURE! ---> (just because.)

3 days until my Plastic Tree CD comes in the mail.

4 days until Pirates of the Carribean 2 opens.

5 days until Animethon, and me buying oodles of yaoi manga and other anime merchandise.

Now... I sleep.

Zzz..(u_u)

I Win At Life.

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 23:05:00 GMT

MY PORTFOLIO WAS ACCEPTED!

*pause for applause*

AND I'm finished high school FOREVER.

I'm SO happy. I'm on this crazy little poetry spree. Maybe I'll post some when I fix them up. ^ ^

I love this time of year. I'm finished with everything, there's nothing to worry about, and everything is just... happy. It's pretty awesome.

I downloaded the new Plastic Tree CD, before it comes in the mail next week... ( I seriously couldn't wait the week) and I LOVE it. It sounds very much super with my new MP3 player, and new Skullcandy headphones.
They couldn't fix my iPod, so the store offered to replace it with one of those new Sony Walkman players, with the crazy floating screen. It's pretty nifty, although it scratches easily, and I'm ready to murder the program it came with.

I named it Kuuchuu, which I do believe mean something like sky, or air. (it's silvery and gray colored).

I was going to take it back, because there are all these little things that are annoying about it, but after I name something, it sort of develops a personality, so I knew I wouldn't have the heart to return it. So, I'm stuck with Kuuchuu. Who is a brat. But I love it anyway.

And something happy, which I didn't know... Neil Gaiman's book Stardust *which I love* is being made into a movie. O O ~<3

AND.

8 days until Pirates of the Carribean! ^ _____ ^ (EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!)

Nedd and Merl

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 18:22:15 GMT

Nedd and Merl are very strange creatures.

Nedd is a... ball of sorts... with little whispy smoke-like tentacles. Nedd is the owner of a overactive/paranoid mind.

Merl... is Merl. He can't really fly. Or, at least not that he knows of. Merl likes to eat.

And so, here is the meeting of Nedd and Merl.

And now you all have met Nedd and Merl too.

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 19:32:45 GMT

I'm sick.

Again.

I'm totally going crazy.

But on the bright side, I have ONE more test tomorrow. Just one. Then I'm bloody FINISHED everything.

SPECIAL.

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 23:32:20 GMT

Now that school is over, and the worst part of my exams are over, I feel significantly better about everything. (This time of year I can be such a whiny little twit. I'm sure I would smack myself, if I were someone else.)

But now, it's totally all good.

I'll know by the 29th if I get into college or not. So I'm excited to find that out.

And everyone needs to go out and rent the movie Kiss Kiss, Bang Bang. Right now. It's awesome.

And Deathnote movie came out yesterday, so I await the bootleg copy so I can watch it on my new MP3/Video player. When I get it. Which could be TOMORROW. OMG.

I'm fairly sick. Allergies got to me today. And now my voice is gone, as what happens watching all the football games all day. I watched Brazil vs. Austraila, and France vs. Kora. Both games were pretty super.

I'd like to kill WMP10. With a stick. (fuckingSTUPIDthing.)

Now I leave. For cake.

Noodles~ (instead of toodles... er..... yeah... it's funnier to me, I think. ^ ^')

IT approaches!

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 21:44:02 GMT

Well, lots approaches, really.

Firstly, Wednesday = PORTFOLIO DUE. I should be honest. It's not looking good. Design was a last minute change from writing, and I pretty much know the portfolio has about a 30% chance. Which is okay, I think. I'm starting to think a year off to just work and... not school.... would be pretty cool. But if I get in, that would still be super. Either way is good, I think.

Secondly: I can get a new MP3 player in a week. I'm going for this one. It would be my baby. I have so many PVs and anime episodes and concerts... I would love it forever. And it comes in pink. Which is, actually, super important... ^ ^'

Thirdly: END OF SCHOOL. JEEBUS. I can't WAIT.

Fourthly: Plastic Tree CDs... I ordered Chandelier (the limited edition one~), and Namae no Nai Hana. Because that is pretty much my favorite song by them at the moment.

Fifthly: Pirates of the Carribean 2. My exitement for this movie is huge. I can't wait~

Sixthly, the very next day: Animethon. (SUPERYAY).

To the secondly: Let's see how long it is before I hit the peak of the whole MP3 player withdrawl.

I give it three more days, myself.

If I SEE Another Apple, I Shall Massacre It.

Sat, 10 Jun 2006 19:44:26 GMT

That iPod broke 3 times in my posession. And this one was new, because I had exchanged it for a previous one that had broke.

Despite, my MP3 player was pretty much my most beloved item.

And I totally can't afford another one. Not until, December. Or later.
I'm going to strike a bargain with my parents, I think. If I can pay them 80$ a month, I could pay it back in 5.
And I plan to knit a lot this summer and sell stuff. So since I can get a credit card, I would like to do so, and then sell a bunch of stuff on Etsy. I can make awesome mittens. And really cute random things. AND really nifty scarves.
So any money I make from that, I could pay them half of that... O O

In Memoriam

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 20:10:42 GMT

Today, on this day of June 9th, 2006, at exactly 2:08PM mountain time, Momoko the pink iPod mini has finally died.

Momoko... was a good MP3 player. And shall be sorely missed.

*dramatic re-enaction of Shimotsuma Monogatari*

*screams* MOMOKO!!!!!!!

Thankfully...

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 04:18:20 GMT

...the treadmil arrived today.
Because I can't fit into my old skirt.

So... of course... I went and ate half a bag of cookies.

But it wasn't entirely the skirt's fault.

I think it's important for me to write this out, and figure out just why I ate those cookies.

I sat down, and I started to think while I was drawing. Because I didn't have anything else to do, and I needed to keep myself awake to finish the drawing. I started listing to Frou Frou, but that really made me sleepy, so I switched to Akino Arai. Which is worse for keeping one awake. Oddly, Last Alliance was putting me to sleep too. So I made a playlist of mostly Plastic Tree, and THAT didn't work either. Neither did listening to some of these horrible little japanese bands that god knows how ended up on my iPod. I settled on TM Revolution, and that worked for awhile.

Of course, by this time, I had drank a few cups of coffee.

I finished the drawing. I don't know why, but I had a dream about a JRock band, and the lead singer had this awesome outfit. So I drew it.

Then I got really... weird (I don't know how to explain it, I think only two other people have seen this ever.) So I tried to write some Kingdom Heart's drabbles. One of them is turning out okay, actually. Then I started druming the beat to TMR's Invoke on the table. Like, hardcore. It was pretty funny. I started to laugh after.

Then I got really sad, and felt like watching Shimotsuma Monogatari. Or Kamikaze Girls, as is called in the NA release. Because, that is so MY movie. I've seen it more times than I can remember. I love it to millions and billions of bits and peices. But I remembered I had stupidly lent it to a friend...

So I dressed up and made some tea, and went to read some xxxholic fics. Then I remembered the doctor appointment, and went to that.
Got home, ate, went to evening Japanese class.

Took my test. WHICH I THOUGHT WAS NEXT WEEK. (It was a final. I failed the bit about writing sentences.)

I got home, made more tea, as it was boiling, I went to try on this skirt I had found after it had been missing for a year.

It didn't fit.

Which made me feel, for some reason, really sad and old.

So I ate the cookies. And after writing everything from the time I got home to now didn't help a bit.

I guess I was feeling pretty shitty most of the day.

The point of this story, I guess, is that I find it depressing to be around people all the time. I haven't had time by myself for while now. Which has nothing to do with the above. But I guess it's true. I have a low people tolerance. Especially a low fucktard tolerance. (I'm not pointing out one person, no, not at all... which is a lie.) But there are several people at the moment that I don't mind being around, which is weird for me. But it seems like every one else in the world has close friends but me. (hold on, I think I'm coming onto a psychological breakthrough here...)
Hence the low people tolerance, because I don't really bring out the whole of my personality in front of people anymore. I only really did around certain people. But I'm not friends with those people anymore. Which is why I want alone time, so I can be myself, even if it's only around myself.

That's probably why I ate the cookies.

Or not. Keep in mind I'm severely retarded when I'm depressed, folks. Nothing tends to make ANY sense.

I just watched episode 9 of Ouran High School Host Club. Might be the sleep deprivation, but that was superly messed up. O O (But I still loved it.)

. . .

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 00:12:05 GMT

Yeah... I only get half the money for tuition from the loan I applied for the other day. So if I can't appeal and get them to give me the other half, then I can't go this year. Because we don't have the extra $3000. I'll have to work...

And my portfolio is due next Wednesday, so I have to find out quickly if I get the rest of the money or not. Because I am not running around panicking and having a heart attack for the next week, trying to finish it, when it doesn't even matter... > >

For the time being, I'm glad we have a late entry day tomorrow morning, because I need the extra two hours of sleep. I was up all night, and I kept falling asleep and forgetting what I had been doing before... T T

artworks~

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 23:49:38 GMT

I drew something~
A picture of my adorable little Morning.

I also posted some Death Note fanart, a picture of Near at death_eyes

EYAH.

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 02:18:35 GMT

I graduated this morning. O O
It was really weird, I felt like I wanted to cry almost the whole time. But it was still happy.

OMG. O O

EEEEEEEEE!

Fri, 02 Jun 2006 18:53:56 GMT

OH, OH, WHAT'S THEM? (Why, I do believe, they are my new glasses~!!) ^    ^

A celebration and a half.

I graduate tomorrow. Jebus Christmas.

Dollar Stores are my HERO. I found this awesome umbrella which is now my new parasol (it's dark pink! O O matches everything!) So I sewed buttons all over it, and drew a heart with a crown in white eyeliner, and sprayed that with fixative. I found a crochet hook and yarn, tiny little safety pins, these adorable hairclips with crowns, SPARKLY STICKERS. WITH ROCOCO ART ON THEM. And these cute little stickers with hibiscus blossoms and stars, and then there were little canvases, and, and, STUFF. Yes.

One month + 6 days (I think) until Animethon. + 5 until Pirates of the Carribean 2. (I think.) This will be the best weekend of the summer. I'm so excited. This is my first year doing a cosplay too, but I'm not entering the contest...^   ^' (I hate performing in front of lots of strange peoples.) I am cosplaying... L. From Deathnote.

<--- picture!

Because L is pretty freakin super. And I'm told I resemble him, expecially without the glasses. (The hair and the massive eyeliner smudgery...)
SO I think I would make a pretty good L. Or Raito, if I could, you know, finally get my hair back to being brown from red. (It's not working, I've tried 4 times.) So I figure black would be easier. And L would be cheaper than gothic lolita clothes. AND it would be a popular costume, because lots of people heart Deathnote.

I'm going to bring a box of donuts with me, and carry them around. I'm curious to see who else has played the yaoi Deathnote doujinshi game, Kinbaku Ouji. I'll know immediately, because like me, they will probably giggle like a retard at the sight of a donut. I know I'll never look at them the same again.

But I wouldn't do it if I didn't think I would make a really good L. It's a real annoyance when you see really bad cosplay. Like, why on earth would you cosplay someone that you don't resemble? I mean, if you can manage the hair on your own, or wigs, and a costume that, you know, looks like the costume or something the character would wear, then by all means, dress up. But some people... *shakes fist* it's just a huge annoyance of mine, the really bad cosplay. (And don't crossdress if you can't do it, you know? It's just horrible.) But I love seeing people who have put some effort and thought and creativity into it.

For the other smaller anime convention in the fall, I'm going to cosplay Ritsuka from Loveless.~ (Of all the cosplay I could do, I only have boys in mind... o   o)

SO. Amigurumi. I'm making another one. An Alice (as in from Wonderland) bear. Complete with petticoat, pinafore, and hair bow. The cat I made the other day... he's so overstuffed and lopsided, so I'm debating posting pictures. I'll prolly finish Alice on Sunday, so I'll get someone to lend me a digital camera, and I will take some really good pictures. She won't be overstuffed, and I'm tweaking the body from the pattern so it looks better.

And now, I am going to draw. Because I've been waiting a week to draw in my new sketchbook. ^   ^

Fun With Dollar Stores

Wed, 31 May 2006 17:20:12 GMT

I didn't get my glasses. Which makes me sad. O O
But PROBABLY today. Then I will be superhappy.

I am going to the dollar store today!! I'm going to go buy lots of hairclips, and some little painting canvases. Dollar stores are my hero. There are 3 within 15 minutes of walking from my house. ^ ^

If I find anything really awesome, I will take some pictures with my webcam later ^ ^

And it is a BEAUTIFUL day, so I get to spend my next spare crocheting amigurumi plushies outside~ ^ ^

Waiting For My Eyes...

Mon, 29 May 2006 04:06:01 GMT

My glasses may come in tomorrow. If that happens, I will be SO happy.
Then I can draw again. I even went out and spent 15$ on a new sketchbook. And I REALLY want to draw in it. But I promised I wouldn't do anything at all until I had my new glasses.
Then maybe everything won't look so frigging retarded when I try to draw it. (I miss drawing my cat boys.... T T) I downloaded a huge folder filled with fanart of Mello and Near from Deathnote, so now I have an urge to draw some cute pictures of them.

I also bought some yarn. I have a gift to make, so I'm going to make an amigurumi kitty using the pattern here, with some tweaking. I downloaded a book of Hello Kitty amigurumi patterns, but I don't have time to figure the Japanese patterns. And I'm going to give it in a little cupcake box I found a pattern for somewhere, but I'll have to go find that again now, I closed the tab by mistake... O O *mildly retarded...*

I also realized something today. My mum reminded me. And you'll think I'm a retard for forgetting, but it's true, I did forget.

I GRADUATE ON SATURDAY.

Thankfully, at this point in time, I can honestly say that I am over my whole pre-pre-midlife crisis that has been since my 18th birthday in September.

I've concluded that I am forever to never be grown up. Which is good. I am one of those people that should never grow up. But I have also concluded that I do have a good ammount of maturity there for those few times when I may actually need to be mature and serious about something. And I figure that's a good thing, too.
When I remembered the graduation thing, I realized I wasn't nearly as panicked about it as I thought I would be. Actually, my main thoughts about it, are that I have to pass that fucking social 30, get this bloody ceremony over with, and be on with the rest of my life. (I can't wait for the summer. O <)

Yes, 1 extra year of high school was enough for me. A lesson, kids: don't skip classes, and DON'T homeschool yourself online for a year, because Ragnarok Online becomes a spectacular addiction, and you will fail every single one of your courses. ^ ^'

HAPPY THING: I finally burned a copy of the Nana live action movie. I watched half of it. And it is SO super.

The Birds

Sun, 28 May 2006 02:27:12 GMT

I took this picture from the kitchen a few months ago. And believe me, I couldn't fit them all in.
There were so many of them... it kinda freaked me out a little...

SUCCESS!

Sat, 27 May 2006 20:34:33 GMT

I found my card.
In a pair of excersize shorts I use sometimes, when I play PPP or DDR.
In the back pocket. (The one pocket I never use.)
Shoved in the back of a drawer... O O

This is one of those times I truly believe I would lose my head if it were not attatched. ^ ^'

The Head Hits the Desk.

Fri, 26 May 2006 23:41:11 GMT

WHAT a shitty day.

I'm not even kidding.

I feel so sick. I lost my bank card. (lol I took a shower and dressed up all nice, thinking I was going shopping to a bunch of places, and now I get to stay home. O O)

I don't feel like a real person. (I know that's a little harsh, but that is so the only way I can put it.)

I miss having a best friend. You know, the one person who totally feels like they are the other freakin half of your soul? It's really lonely not having one person like that to talk to and tell everything, and share everything, without feeling embarrased, and so on. With other people, it's like, "HOLY crap. I can't say THAT. They'll think I'm totally crazy. Which is true... but I still can't say that." I always have to think about what I'm saying, and try not to offend anyone. I miss having someone that you don't have to worry about offending by being yourself/your personality/likes and dislikes and all of that, and you know they feel the same way. O O

As you can tell, I'm having people issues lately. But hey, when am I not, you know?

It's also a hard time of year for me... the exams, the pressure, the trying to get into college and all that. I always can't wait for the summer to come.

So. There you are. I'm depressed today. It happens, right?
Of course it does. I can't be happy every day, lol.

But I do get to watch a bunch of Ouran High School Host Club episodes I just finished burning... so that makes me feel a little better. ^ ^'

I heart Friday.

Fri, 26 May 2006 16:38:27 GMT

I'm so happy! I can't wait to go home today. I'm so sleepy... and I might get to go see The Da Vinci Code today.
AND I get to go art supply shopping. Which is always super.
One day, that set of Copic markers will be mine...

Half The Problem = solved.

Fri, 26 May 2006 02:34:53 GMT

SO.
The reason for my constantly being sleepy-ish/dizzy/in head pain, the stupidity resulting from all those three at once all the time, and everything contributing to my "I don't want to do shit, everything sucks" attitude, the reason, was very simple.

MY GLASSES.

The perscription was off.

Isn't that amazing? I only have to deal with it until next week, and I get pretty new glasses with proper lenses. ^ ^ Then I shall be as good as new, I hope.

I also discovered there is to be a Death Note tribute album coming out next month... With Buck Tick! And m-flo! And Kirito! *budgeting...*